Yes, it has been a while since I last posted, sorry for the delay. Things have been busy, I started my new job on Monday and still go to class at night til 10pm. So it's a bit of a long day that I'm getting used to. First day of work I had the usual jitters, nerves and fears that come with something new. This is my first experience in the "corporate" world, and having a 9-5 job. I must say, while being nervous about the experience, there was a part of me that felt like I've finally grown up, and am on my path to life and all that it brings.
Today was a new day, and not a good one. My job is a 90 day contract-to-hire position if both parties are satisfied with the other. Fine by me, it allows me time to get my feet wet, and see if I like it, and vice versa. I've been working alot with SQL and Paradox, both of which I have NO experience in. The company knew that, but were either desperate for a body, or saw something about me that they figured I would be able to get how it works. There are a ton of things to watch for, data to be entered, and other shit I'd rather not talk about. I guess my point here is that I know it's only my 2nd day, but I am frustrated. Frustrated because I am a person who excels at being able to grasp new concepts and ideas and implement them right away. These past 2 days have brought me down to earth. I have a LONG way to go, many mistakes to make, but I struggle with patience. I want results NOW!!! If I struggle, I feel like I'm failing, which I don't want to do at my job.
I guess I just needed to vent today, I know tomorrow is a new day, and I will try to make the mental adjustment to accept each day as it comes, and my progress may be slow, but I will make progress. I wasn't gonna post today, after work I didn't even want to turn on my computer tonight, but I did, just to say hello, I'm alive, and right now I'm struggling. I hope all of you are well out there, I will try to check out your blogs as soon as possible, but my computer usage will be minimal for this month while I go to school at night and work during the day.
5 comments:
I can't even imagine how hard that would be. I wish you luck and speed in learning things so that its not stressful for ya. Its amazing they gave you the chance. Most places around here wouldn't saying that if you have no experience you can leave now, which has me thinking how am i going to gain experience if no one will give me the chance to gain it. ugh
rob - no worries - unless you have a really boring lame job, it's pretty much *always* going to be like that at first. especially when we're all young & haven't been doing the same thing for 25 yrs yet. who wants to do a job you already know everything about anyway? :-)
Hang in there and you'll pull through. Trust that the company truly did see your potential!
I hope that soon it all clicks and that it will be smooth sailing. Will your school be covering the topics any time soon? That'd be cool. Anyhow, I hope that it goes well!
I LOVE the SQL for Dummies book. You laugh, but it is helpful! I understand your frustration, but just think in no time it will all be a breeze and you'll be wanting to learn more and have new challenges! :)
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