Countdowns

Well, another day is in the books, I can't believe that it's already June! My countdown to Las Vegas has begun, being less than a month away. The FIFA World Cup is also starting up on Friday, and i can't wait for that to begin. For 30 glorious days, soccer will be in the spotlight showing the best players the world has to offer, and since it only comes around once every 4 years, those 30 days are pure bliss.

This weekend i'll be goin to an Angel game with my friend amado. You can see who he is by clicking on my myspace link if so inclined. I don't use myspace that much,mostly to keep in touch with peeps i've lost contact with, and to see what else is goin on with my friends. My important friends i talk to on the phone, so it's not a big deal for me to see or talk to them on myspace. I don't want my friends to know much about me, my thoughts or feelings, so they don't know about my blog. I had told a select few, but i doubt any still check up on it, especially since I stopped writing for a while. I think I may get a bit deeper here now that I'm sure they don't read.

One tidbit I'd like to share is that right now in my life, I'm lonely. Not in a literal sense, cuz i have my family and friends, but in the emotional sense. Monday was the birthday of my ex. We still talk, and in fact she's on my myspace friends list, but I've just been weirded out with her b-day just happening. I know that we weren't good for each other, and us breaking up was a good thing, but it makes me sad when I think of the fun times we did have, and celebrating her birthday by doing something or goin somewhere. I miss sharing those times with a significant other. It's the little things about a relationship that I very much miss. The goofing around, staring into her eyes for minutes on end, making her laugh, and so many more things to list here. I have someone that I wish I could share those things with, but it doesn't seem to be in the cards. I feel like Albert Brenneman from Hitch. When he asks Hitch if he knows what it's like to not be with the one you love, only to watch them with someone else, hoping that she finds the happiness she deserves even if it isn't with you? Sigh.......well, payday is friday, at least i have that to look forward to.